Dilemma……Sun or Rainbow?

October 26th, 2008 by rozasaat

A poetic post after my long break from blogging……sun or a rainbow? Definition from merriam-webster.com dictionary:

Dilemma :a problem involving a difficult choice

Rainbow:

1.an arc or circle that exhibits in concentric bands the colors of the spectrum and that is formed opposite the sun by the refraction and reflection of the sun’s rays in raindrops, spray, or mist. 2. an illusory goal or hope. It lift you up and let you down.

Sun :

1.the luminous celestial body around which the earth and other planets revolve, from which they receive heat and light. 2.one resembling the sun (as in warmth or brilliance).

I dont want to choose either one because what i need is a shelter.

Shelter:

1. something that covers or affords protection,an establishment providing food and shelter . 2. a position or the state of being covered and protected

Should i wait for this shelter or can a ’sun’ or ‘rainbow’ being my shelter?

Settling for something less….

January 20th, 2008 by rozasaat

I am intrigue by this one article in monday morning motivation about wiser choice. Which is wiser

A) the one who Settle for the "lesser of two evils" the "best of the bad lot" because it is not as bad as the other options or
B) someone who stick up for what’s right and making the best -even if it takes a little bit of work..

Ideally It had to be (B). But life is not ideal and sometimes we have to deal with (A). Does that makes people less wiser? 

After years of dealing with Multiple Choice Questions (MCQ) examination that forces us to pick only A or B …we should realize by now that it is not applicable in real life. As there is always grey besides black and white, there is always C in the above MCQ and we can always choose not to choose anything in the examination…right?

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Wrong!… black is clear while white also very clear- what about Grey?- we have many shades of grey - darker shades means lots of black while lighter shades means more of white…can you choose the shades of grey that you want? OF COURSE

It is not about the thing that you choose (although it is important) but rather how you make the decision and the subsequences of your decision that makes a different.  Wiser choice means you believe in some values and principle and stick to it while making decision..in fashion follow the crowd in principle- stood like rock.

…decide but don’t compromise your principle…Choosing the lesser of two evils does not change the fact that it is still evil- but if you believe that there must be so much good in the worst of us and so much bad in the best of us you will give it a benefit of a doubt and make a choice. Whether it is wise or not -it’s not other people who can judge you. You just know that you have made a wise decision because you made it and you live with it.. as simple as that.

What do you think.  Wise or unwise who decide?

Attitude…..

January 11th, 2008 by rozasaat

Alhamdulillah i have just received the formal report of my viva examination with the list of ammendmends that need to be completed within 12 weeks….hopefully i can make it before going back to Miri..insyaAllah… anyway i would like to share this very interesting story from MyDailyInsight. It made me crack a smile…

There once was a woman who woke up one morning,
looked in the mirror, and noticed she had only three hairs on her head.
Well," she said, "I think I’ll braid my hair today?"
So she did and she had a wonderful day.

The next day she woke up,
looked in the mirror and saw that she had only two hairs on her head.
"H-M-M," she said,
"I think I’ll part my hair down the middle today?"
So she did and she had a grand day.

The next day she woke up,
looked in the mirror and noticed that she had only one hair on her head.
"Well," she said,
"today I’m going to wear my hair in a pony tail."
So she did and she had a fun, fun day.

The next day she woke up,
looked in the mirror and noticed that there wasn’t a single hair on her head.
"YEA!" she exclaimed,
"I don’t have to fix my hair today!"

Attitude is everything.

so…

Be kinder than necessary,
for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.
Live simply,
Love generously,
Care deeply,
Speak kindly…….
Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass.
It’s about learning to dance in the rain….

Have a nice day :D

Jan 2008 Update

January 8th, 2008 by rozasaat

2007 ended in a very sweet way- It was December 31st, and i pass my viva with minor correction. When the chairperson announced the result i just cant help myself. I cried- then and there…

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It was a long journey,full of laughters and tears…friends come and go,  and its getting lonelier towards the end…

Most of my friends are now going back to their hometown or resuming their duty while waiting for their viva … may everything went smoothly in their life and my pray always be with them…P1010004

As for me at this very moment…perseverance is what i really prayed for,before i can bid farewell to UIA…few more steps to go …correction and correction….

Woman & Birthday and remembering….

August 13th, 2006 by rozasaat

What is it about birthday that we- (i mean woman that is) are so sensitive about?…

mmm i dont know maybe its just in our nature that we cherish (i.e remember, expecting good wishes and celebrates ) birthdays, anniversaries (declaration anniversary, wedding anniversary, parents wedding anniversary etc….) to the extent that we can put up a fight if someone we love forgot about it.. is it the date or the thoughtful gesture of remembering that we are so sensitive about?

When i come to think of it, there were times actually when i forgot the exact date of someone’s birthday…..not once but for three consecutive years..its true…the first year i got the wrong month and date thus i sent him a birthday card one month early..the second year i sent him a card with belated birthday wish when in fact the birthday is not another week later and during the third year i was so excited to be the first to wish him happy birthday so i called him at midnight - but just to learn that i was early by one day…

haha talking about remembering…thank god i got the year and the age right.. in the fourth year i have to reconfirm with my friend to ensure i didnt mixed up his birthdate again! last week its the 9th year since i sent him the first birthday card and i remember his birthday still. What a way to remember someone’s birthday you would say. What was his response throughout the ordeal ..he’s one patience and cool fella…never missed my birthday since we were 18…wherever you are…you’re still my favourite pizza toppings  ;)

p/s :
Guys..if you forgot someone’s birthday…appologize and give whatever excuses that you can. Forgot as you may but please dont try to rationalize that it doesnt matter (coz it does! at least for us)…let it be! this is one thing that even my 60 year old mum are still very sensitive about.  For guys who has never forget their girlfriend’s, wife’s, wives’ (huhu) birthday.. wow! you’re like an elephant (elephants never forget remember?)….maybe you should try it once..hehe No lah!.. dont you dare..you must be a rare species then..

http://www.inminds.co.uk/boycott-faq.html

August 10th, 2006 by rozasaat

Picture worth our grieve and tears…hopefully this could help me and you to restrain ourself from buying McD, KFC etc..insyaallah

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Kabung4_3 Kabung9_2

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Source from : http://tehranifaisal.blogspot.com/

please visit http://pedulipalestina.blogspot.com/

pipeline closure

August 8th, 2006 by rozasaat

The yahoo online reported today that BP the second largest oil company, shuts giant Alaska oil field due to pipeline damage…
The closure was the latest incident to hit BP’s Alaskan operations, just another blow to U.S. image following a deadly refinery explosion last year. They have to replace the 16 miles (around 25.7 km) pipelines and the complete shutdown might last for months (2-3 mths).  This drastic shutdown were meant to prevent further leakage and the probable spill that might endangered the publics and environment.

Subsequently, there were speculation on the hike of world oil price-AGAIN!!! Thank God, Pak Lah has promised that they will be no more increase this year…(can we count on his word? ) uh oh i’ll be in trouble..

Never mind..whats so intriguing about this news (besides the potential of oil price surged, Pak Lah tells all etc) is the cause of this severe corrossion..

Its the negligence on the part of the pipeline operator…

They refuse to pig their pipeline for almost 14 years (the last time they perform intelligent pigging was in 1992) and they thought that it werent necessary … well duh! poor pipeline maintenance has cause huge losses dude…it seems that the american were so nosy about other countries state of affairs but failed to mind about a very tiny detail of their own business…

Why am i so into this pipeline thingy? owh its just my new found "love" (not really new i supposed …we’ve been "acquanted" for almost a year now )……my obsession… my infatuation…to tell you the truth i even put up the picture on my wall…(poor besotted me huh! ) dont get me wrong …its not about a guy, iam talking about my master’s thesis here …and the irony is i just cant wait for it to be over ..sigh!!!

read the detail of the news here:
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20060807/bs_nm/energy_bp_alaska_dc_5

asking and questioning?

August 6th, 2006 by rozasaat

What is the difference between asking and questioning? 

Asking requires close ended answer but questioning always ended up in full blown debate..

can you spot the different?  Nope?..ok lets try another one

"You ask a person about what he wants to eat but you question them on why they pick that specific food.."

well…how about now?

What is it that triggered my grey matter to contemplate about this…let me think…maybe my unexpected (or i can say not so enjoyable encounter) with a friend who seems to have questions about anything and everything on earth surfaces ..(so to speak)…

Maybe her surrounding and upbringing make her such a bold and "interesting" person but as a typical malay and kampung girl …i always had this notion imprinted in me (like circuit component on silicon wafer) that it’s rude and impolite to ask too much let alone questioning to the point that might create uneasiness on others..(in other word–> to provoke).

Its good to nourish your curiosity but make sure you know the borderline between the two
There always time and place for both to be use at its own purpose, If you mean to provoke then shoot a question…for a timid and peaceful soul…always be prepared before you throw a question on others..you never know what you gonna get.

Falling In Love..

August 4th, 2006 by rozasaat

It is a mystery why we fall in love.
It is a mystery how it happens.
It is a mystery then it comes.
It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some falls

You can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes
but you will never do anymore than take the life out of the experience.
Just as life itself is more than the sum of bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body
Love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share.

And just as life itself is a gift and goes in its own time,
so too, the coming of love and must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways.

sometimes, hopefully, at least once in your life, the gift of love will come to you in full flower
and you will take hold of it and celebrate it in all its inexpressible beauty
This is the dream that we all share.
More often, it will come and take hold of you, celebrate you for a brief moment, then move on.

When this happen to young people, they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them,
refusing to see that it is a gift that is freely given,
and a gift that, just as freely, moves away.
When they fall out of love, or the person they love feels the spirit of leaving,
they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost
rather than accepting the gift for what it was, then moving on.

They want answers where there are no answers.
They want to know what is wrong in them, that makes the other person no longer love them,
or they try to get their love to change,
thinking that if some things were different, love would bloom again.
They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away
and start a new life together, their love will grow
They try anything to give meaning beyond the life itself,
and until they accept its own mysterious ways they live in a sea of misery.

You need to know this about love and to accept it.
You need to treat what it brings you with kindness.
If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you,
be gentle with yourself, there is nothing wrong with you.
Love just didnt choose to rest in the other person’s heart.
If you find someone else in love with you and you dont love him,
feel honored that love came and called at your door,
but gently refuse the gift that you cannot return,
Do not take advantage.Do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you.
And all our hearts feel the same pains and joys,
even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall with another, and he falls in love with you
and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or asses blame. Let it go.
There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you dont choose love. Love choose you.
All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.
Feel the way it fills to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive on you.
Give it back to the others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.
There is where many people go wrong.
Having been so long without love, they understand love as a need.
They see their hearts as empty spaces that will be filled with love,
and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

Love has its own time, its own seasons and its own reason for coming and going.
You cannot bribe it, or coerce it or reason it to stay.
You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.
But if it chooses to leave your heart or from the heart of your loves one,
there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.
Love has been always and always will be a mystery.
Be glad that it come and live for a moment in your life.
If you keep open, It will come again.

But if you love Allah above anything
your heart will never be empty
because HE will never leave you..
and you can always count on HIM on everything ..

i am back…

July 26th, 2006 by rozasaat

What happened to my dear old blog?  …i kind of delete it ..what? No, not accidentally i delete it on purpose..why? mm it’s just one of my out of the blue mood strike my head off balance…yeah..yeah i know i regret it the moment i log out of friendster…

what have i missed so far? ..besides the world cup talks..nothing much really..(owh how i crave blogging during that season…especially the headbutt moment..but Zizou is still the man..)

Its hard to start all over again…it took me few months to re-setup my blog…well you guys didnt missed anything significant actually…i am still the very same graduate student trying to complete my research and well ok ..maybe a slight improvement ..i met my supervisor few weeks ago, i hand in few chapters of my thesis and siti nurhaliza is getting married next month haha (so irrelevant of me..)

As usual here we go ..my simple life chronology  (why else do you think i re-setup my blog? :p) as to date the major setback is…my winXP crashed!!! - last Sunday 6.05 p.m. Big deal?  yeah..to me coz the last time i back-up my file is sometime in April…how bad?..bad as it sound.. how do i feel? Its like my kitten was just hit by a car mm well maybe not car..its more like a train … yes thats how deteriorated my mood and my spirit is at this moment…

You must be thinking who in the **** back-up his system once a year? dont even go there…how do i know a seemingly  innocent application can crashed my system in a blink…thats right just in few secs and everything gone….i tried to bring it back to life, and restore it to the point where things went South by repairing it through the ominous recovery console..(the ugly, intimidating, black-suited friend that only understand the cd,dir,mkdir language …yeah -the command line..) but its too late the damage is too severe.. i cant recover most of my data.. my thesis? ..well thankfully i have a copy of it in my thumbdrive…(i am not that dumb after all heh!) …

M.O.S:

When your system crash- dont panic, you can still recover your system and data thru recovery console or by transfering the data to another computer (external hard disk connector come very handy during this time of the year huhu) and The most important thing is backup..backup and backup..your system.